Finarfin:
For how long didst thou
hold sway over the Havens of Balar, then?
Finrod: [shaking his head]
No, I thought I made
that clear -- we were allied with the coasts, and
maintained the defenses
at Brithombar and Eglarest as well as as improving
the shipyards in the
south, but I never administered those areas. Lord
Cirdan and I were friends,
but he was never my subject; it would have
been absurd for one
as inexperienced as I, and a foreigner, to claim
dominion over the Sea-elves
of Beleriand on the grounds of being their
former King's grandson!
I gave him counsel, sometimes, as he advised
me well in turn.
Finarfin:
Indeed, and wert thou
not most singularly counselled in the course of
thy reign throughout?
[they both glance at the group by the falls,
briefly, and Finrod becomes
very stern]
Finrod:
I bestowed my trust
on those who proved themselves trustworthy, and
authority on those who
showed themselves fit to wield it. If they are not
the most easy-tempered
of Elves, what of it? I know you consider them
responsible,
like everyone else who didn't turn back with you, and a bad
influence -- but you
really don't grasp what things were like in the Old
Country, how much work
there was to be done, and how little ready
resources to do it with--
[leaning forward, intense]
--and especially
what the Crossing was like. I needed every trustworthy
and willing soul I could
get. I used my siblings' help when I could -- but
they had their own domains
to administer and Work to do, and I couldn't
go yanking them off
that whenever I needed something looked into. And
I never did figure out
how to be in three places at once. Nor had I your
option, of delegating
or diverting delicate matters of negotiation and
personal conflict to
my partner and co-ruler. So I'll thank you, Father,
not to speak
slightingly of those friends who did stay loyal to me.
[Finarfin looks down, not saying anything in his own defense]
Amarie: [taut]
They are rebels, notwithstanding.
Finrod:
Yes. We are.
[she looks away, fiddling with her sash, and
he does not pursue the matter --
instead he turns to his elders with an air of
innocent curiosity:]
So -- were you engaging
in yet another instance of sibling rivalry
with us, or was
it purely coincidental that we've got the largest
families of anyone in
Valinor, at least as things stood when we left?
Finarfin:
Thy query is past comprehending,
child.
Finrod: [to his father]
Of course it could simply
be that Grandfather wanted a lot of kids,
and you all simply took
it for granted as something to strive for,
internalizing it without
realizing it, and nothing deliberate about
it, but--
[to his aunt]
When my cousins and I
were -- not friends, as it after proved, but
friendly -- we
started wondering, after Cur pointed out the respective
ages and we did up a
comparison table, and they remarked on how
exceptionally pleased
you two were when the twins were born, as if
something had been definitively
settled, that you'd gotten so far
ahead that no one else
could catch up.
[she gives him a very frosty Look]
Nerdanel:
Thine other uncle hath
also more children than most commonly is custom.
Finrod: [blithely]
We know. I've asked
him, but he just ignores the question.
[shrugs]
I suppose it could
just be coincidence, but there does seem to be
something in the fact
that there do seem to be these batches of
cousins all right around
the same time in our House.
Nerdanel: [quellingly]
Nay, is it yet more
of yon quaint fashion of speech from the Old
Country? for surely
thou dost not mean to speak of people as were
loaves, else cakes--?
Finarfin: [even more quelling]
Finrod -- what,
deemst thou, thy mother should say unto such
malapert inquiring?
Finrod: [shrugs]
I've no idea. That's
why I'm asking, because I haven't any way of
knowing whether it's
the truth, and since she isn't here and you
two are, I'm asking
you instead.
Nerdanel:
Thy manners improvéd
not at all in the Old Country.
Finrod: [cheerful]
I must have lost them
back there, too.
[silence]
Ambassador:
Majesty, it is not gracious
to make light of the matter of unhousing
-- not all of us have
had the same leisure to grow accustomed to the
business, and such jests
are most distressing.
[the living Elves look relieved that another
shade has raised the issue
where they might not.]
Finrod:
Sorry. I meant my wits,
as it happens. I hear so many witty remarks
made concerning my lack
of sanity on, for lack of better phrasing,
a daily basis, that
it seemed the obvious comparison to me.
[cheerful]
So -- were you all having some sort of an artistic competition, then?
[the camera leaves them and moves to focus on
the chess-lessons, where
the Teler Maid is playing against the Captain,
who is presently glaring
at Beren, who is kneeling down next to the board
watching]
Captain:
Please don't
tell me what I should be doing. --Even if you're right.
And nobody go quoting
stupid sayings about things coming and going
around, either.
Teler Maid: [her brows narrowing as she stares at the board]
I do not care much for
this game.
[the Youngest Ranger is sitting beside her, advising her on moves]
Youngest Ranger: [encouraging]
You're doing quite well,
for a beginner, truly.
Teler Maid:
That is not my meaning.
In this fashion of it, there is no way to win,
unless another does
die.
Beren:
Yeah, that's . . . sort
of what happens, in war. Which this is based
on, I'm afraid.
Teler Maid: [shaking her head]
But might it not happen,
that from thinking this so like to war, that
one might come to think
of other Elves--
[looks at Beren]
--or Men -- as but such
small pieces to be set here and there, and
in harm's way, and so
to be knocked aside without regret, so that the
purpose of winning be
attained?
[dramatically she flips one of the pawns over
with a snap of her fingers
to reinforce the point, as if shooting a very
large marble]
Captain: [blinking]
Erm -- I don't see how.
It's but a game, after all.
First Guard: [disturbed but definite about his answer]
No, I'm -- sure, it
-- isn't possible that any of us should come to
such a point, where
the loss of life meant nothing whatsoever -- that
would be unthinkable,
Maiwe. There would be no difference between us
and the Enemy's minions
at that point.
Teler Maid:
You were not
killed by your own folk.
Captain:
Not directly.
Teler Maid:
And does that not but
go to show my sayings' truth, that you were set
aside without regret
by others, that did not care enough to care of your
deaths as if they were
their own?!
Captain: [patient]
There was a Curse invoked,
Curlew, and a great deal of other currents
involved in that turn
of affairs.
[at his words she tosses her head and looks over at the Steward]
Teler Maid:
And what do you
say, my learnéd lord? Think you my notion's but
folly, as well?
[the Captain winces at her words; the Steward
does not answer at once,
but instantly stops the strings, making it clear
that he's paying
attention and thinking about it first]
Steward: [carefully]
It is true that of those
who rebelled against our lord, were many
who favoured the board
as a means of honing skills of strategy,
beyond mere diversion;
but at the same time it is no less true that
the game was unknown,
to those who first committed the sacrilege
of murder against our
people.
Teler Maid:
That is two answers
-- which is to say, none at all!
Steward: [nods]
Indeed, in former days
I should have said at once -- Absurd, to think
that a mere pastime
might change the reasoning mind, a mere thing that
thought employs itself
about, as though the wax might shape the burin
that sculpts it equally,
though it be soft and bronze or agate hard.
But now upon reflection
it comes to me that it is true, that what is
carved does indeed chafe
and shape the tool that works it, for its
respective hardness
and softness thereof, and perhaps in like fashion
the mind should be affected,
pendant upon the self's own powers and
determination. For does
not thought, which shapes speech, and gives
birth to the words that
the tongue utters, hold precedence and rule
over the fleeting sound?
And yet--
[absent-mindedly running his hand around the forepillar of the harp]
--having seen how varied
speech may be, and how alike, and how unlike,
are the ways and manners
of thinking that each has that employs a
different one, I wonder
-- rather, judge it so -- that speech does
truly shape the mind
that makes it, even as the different densities
of stones, and woods,
and metals, do change the sculptor's very hand,
both in pattern of gesture
and by increase of strength. Yet this is
but analogy, of course,
and nothing definite.
Teler Maid:
You still have not said
yea or nay, but yea and nay.
Beren: [frowning]
Isn't that an Elvish
thing? I thought it came from being Eldar.
Steward:
Were I not fearful of
giving offense, I should say that it comes of
wisdom, which often
accompanies years but does not inevitably follow
upon them, but which
may by the course of time and wide experience
allow to overlook a
great many things, as from the topmost branches
of the tallest trees,
and thus reveal that things in truth be other
than at first presumed
while in their midst, as a distance might be
less great than seemed,
or greater, or things thought far apart lie
close beside, and only
such slow and laborious ascent to such a height
may grant the view,
and also must require as well the courage to look
so far and through so
lofty a gap.
[raising an eyebrow]
--Or else, at other times,
it comes but of mental sloth, that does not
care to take the trouble
to think on it, or possibly of simple ignorance,
that is too proud to
grant it.
[his ex gives him a wary look, and then an even
more uncertain one to their
companions, who are chuckling over this . .
. answer]
Soldier:
How did you win,
sir? Against His Majesty the High King?
Captain:
I just assumed you cheated
with the Sight.
[nods from several of the Ten]
Steward:
No, I -- merely played
kingstone, where he was playing chess proper.
Beren: [frowning]
How could you do that?
Steward:
I took the offensive
to his side, by putting my king into play, and
setting all my pieces
in guard around as a doubled nernehta. At first
he was so thrown by
the unprecedent and seeming-madness of such a
hazardous ploy, that
he could not mount an effective defense -- and
then as certain similarities
to unpleasant past events became increasingly
manifest, aided by the
fact that he had drawn black, His Majesty's
uncle became increasingly,
as you would say,
rattled. I nearly felt
badly at putting him
in check with my remaining knight. But I doubt the
stratagem would work
again, now that he has had time to study it.
Beren: [solemnly]
I can see where making
him play Morgoth to your Fingolfin might make
him a tad upset and
careless.
Teler Maid:
But it is little like
to Arda, after all's done, no matter how like
your War -- for when
one battle's ended, you but lay the pieces down
for yet another.
[she gives them a slightly uncertain, challenging
look, receiving only
sad affirmation in return: only the Steward
disagrees at all]
Steward: [shaking his head]
It is not much like
the world Outside -- but it is very like to here.
[he returns to playing, still quietly; beyond,
the Royal Guard sent on
errand to Fingolfin returns, and approaching
the hill, comes up quietly
and kneels down discreetly behind his King,
tapping him on the shoulder
to get his attention.]
Third Guard: [aside to Finrod, in a rather frustrated tone]
Sir, your uncle's being
gloomy over things again and wants you to go
talk to him yourself.
I did tell him you were busy with your father,
but he's not
in the mood to listen.
[he notices the surprised expressions of the
living Eldar and gives Finrod
a worried look]
Finrod: [very amused]
You're scandalizing
my family with our informality.
Third Guard:
Oh.
[bites his lip, straightening as he kneels, and begins again -- very formal tone]
--Sire, the High King
would have your Majesty attend upon his presence
most presently, and
requests that His Majesty the King excuse your
Majesty's absence for
the whiles.
[spoiling it]
How's that, Sir?
Finrod: [approving nod]
Good enough.
Third Guard:
What do you want me
to tell him next?
Finrod: [cool glint]
Nothing. He'll be getting
my response shortly, and regretting this game.
He should know by now
that I play to win.
[snorts]
--On the other hand, he won't be able to complain about being bored.
[to the Guard]
--Thank you.
[his follower nods and makes his departure with
rapidity and relief, heading
over to the much more relaxed, if still strained,
gathering by the waterfall]
Finarfin: [guardedly]
There is ill-will twixt
thee and thine uncle?
[Finrod shrugs, shaking his head a little]
Finrod: [a shade wearily]
He's not gotten over
the fact that most people here think of him as my
uncle, rather than me
as the High King's nephew. We try not to make
an issue of it; but
the fact of the matter is, I held more territory, and
more followers, than
all the rest of our family combined. --For all the
good it did me.
[Finarfin restrains a grimace]
Nerdanel:
But tell me, was that
not ever truth? Surely thy father's elder was not so
blind to see it not?
Finrod:
Yes, but it didn't matter
to him then, because he never paid much attention
to anything that happened
in the south. All his concentration was fixed on
Thangorodrim, and everything
else was important only in so far as it related
to the Leaguer. I might
have ruled most of Beleriand, but it never registered
saving insofar as it
meant that I could guarantee deliveries of weapons and
wine and gemstones and
seafood and safe passage for all of that and his
messengers and troops
to the siege.
Nerdanel:
Whence, then, this sudden
and much-belated cognition of such state as did
obtain o'er all for
nigh well all this Age?
Finrod: [wry]
Because -- an awful
lot of them are here. And yes, technically we are all
of us subject to him
-- my people, including my brothers and their people
as well, along with
the Feanorian dead -- but that doesn't change the fact
that an awful lot of
them, including occasionally my brothers and some of
the Feanorians, come
to me first for advice. Which -- as I've tried to tell
him -- has some little
thing to do with the fact that he's spent much of
the past decade moping
about and playing endless rounds of chess with
whomever he can conscript
into it.
[increasingly exasperated]
I mean -- Grinding Ice!
-- what
difference does it make any more? First
of all, it's completely
in the past; secondly, as you said, Aunt 'Danel,
nothing really
has changed except that he's been forced to notice it.
I don't understand why
he's so touchy about it now. When I was alive
my kingdom came close
to
encircling Elu's, and he never gave me such
a hard time as Uncle
Fingolfin is giving me now. Not even when he threw
us out.
Ambassador:
Yes, but you
freely gave him the one thing he did desire, you and your
siblings and your following
-- respect.
Finrod:
I--
[stops, fights back a grin]
I give my father's brothers
all the respect they are due. No less than
I gave my grandfather's
brother.
Ambassador:
And thus His Majesty
could but ever give his royal nephew hearing,
whether the words were
much to his liking or little, nor long stay
angry with you, Sire.
[Finrod sighs deeply]
Finrod:
--Too many Kings . .
. !
Finarfin: [very measured and slightly-mocking tone]
So, my son, -- art
thou King, or not? For first thou dost deny it, and yet
thy folk aver it, and
thou dost act in such wise ever amidst all, and now,
in guardless speech
thou eke averrest. Canst thou yet, in full cognizance,
and all consideration
of these things, deny me thus once more?
[they match stares for a long, intense moment,
far too much between them to be
said otherwise, and then Finrod sighs, yielding,
but not weakening:]
Finrod: [equally-measured, and very proudly]
For so long as my people
do hold me such, for so long as any of them
stand in need of my
protection, and for so long as we abide within these
Halls -- I shall be
their true lord, as they are true beyond all my
deserving, for how can
I choose other?
Finarfin: [coolly]
I had deemed no less.
--Glad am I in truth to find it so.
[Finrod is not sure what to make of his father's
words; Amarie, who has up till
now been very quiet and taut, now addresses
him, in an edged, brittle tone.]
Amarie:
Thou -- thou
dost not such things, in truth? To strike, with the sword's
keenness, thy fellow
shades?
Finrod:
Not usually.
[brief pause]
Usually, -- worse.
Finarfin:
Howso?
Finrod: [shrugging]
D-- Fire-breathing serpent-monsters.
Molten rivers. --Things out of
their worst nightmares
to haunt them.
Amarie: [sharp]
Then how mayest hold
thyself superior to these thy -- foes?
Finrod: [coolly]
They ravaged Swanhaven.
They haven't regretted it. Now I harry them.
--Not unprovoked, I
assure you.
[she does not respond, but only stares at him
with a strange intensity; he
gives his living relatives a defiant look. In
the background, the Feanorian
contingent returns, strengthened by the addition
of a few more bolder souls]
Nerdanel:
My nephew, didst not
assure that yon unquiet dead should ne'er dare to
return and trouble ye?
[looking around, he grimaces at her dry words]
Finrod:
Unwarranted optimism
-- ever our bane.
[sighing, he gets up and goes over to the incipient
conflagration, shaking
his head wearily at it all. With unspoken accord,
the other four rise and
follow to see what happens. The confronted parties
are in much the same
arrangement as before, with Beren and Huan together
remaining reluctantly
by the falls, while the two followings face
off without yet coming to blows.]
What seems to be the trouble, gentles?
Formenos: [airily]
What trouble would you
have, sir?
Finrod:
None whatsoever, by
my wish. But I fear you bring me some.
Formenos:
No, you and yours brought
it on yourselves. Your servant owes my friend
a debt of pain, and
we are here to see it paid.
Finrod:
You know what my decision
on that was -- that judgment should be left
up to them that rightfully
judge here, and I bid you go and make
your grievance known
to them. Have you not done so?
Aglon:
Hah -- as if they'd
truly judge honestly between you and yours, and us!
You know what the truth
of that is, I'll warrant.
Finrod:
As I know the truth
of what I say -- that I know not what judgment the
Doomsman would pronounce,
but that it be just.
Steward:
My lord, they will not
give you peace, until I yield. Let me--
Finrod:
No.
Steward:
For the common good,
and Beren's--
Finrod:
--No. I do not
betray my own.
[the Steward bows his head in obedience, though not relieved by the refusal]
Formenos:
So quickly you yield,
Enedrion. I hardly recognize you these days --
you must have been at
some pains to blend in over the years with House
Finarfin's "meekness,"
as I believe you used to call it over dinner at
Gatherings in the old
Day, considering how much you said it wore upon you.
[he seems somewhat disappointed and surprised
that the Ten express no surprise
nor dismay whatsoever at this "revelation"]
Aglon: [frowning thoughtfully]
No, it's the other way
'round, I think: he found his proper level with
these, who almost
instantly forgot their Noldor heritage -- such as it
was -- and "naturalized,"
I think they put it, when it's plants. None quite
quite as much as the
little sister -- but you'd swear they were all Dark-
elves themselves, the
way they've been running and hiding from trouble,
these last few years.
Of course, if he'd been
truly High-elven, at heart,
and not just from birth,
he'd not have held back and gotten caught up with
these stragglers back
in the initial stages of the Departure.
[the Steward does not respond, though his expression
reveals the strain --
Finarfin gives him a surprised look]
Finarfin: [darkly]
Is this ever their way
and fashion of words unto ye?
[quick nod]
Yet thou dost not strike him down for such form of insolence?
Steward:
Truly, my lord, I --
I seldom, if ever, permit my anger to rule my deeds.
--That -- was
a most uncommon exception.
Captain: [apologetic]
I usually take
care of any necessary violence, Sir.
Finarfin:
Aye, yet -- he derideth
not only ye, but my son the same, in his words
to thee.
[another quick nod]
Captain:
That's my jurisdiction
as well.
Finarfin:
I aver thy former actions
seem less worthy of reprehensions -- the both
of ye.
[to the Feanorian lords, impassioned:]
Wherefore ye seek naught
but to feed this malice that doth overgrow
thee like unto mossy
greens o'ersliming rocks that do stand in water--
deem ye not that it
shall be the more fitting employ of spirit and
strength to seek an
end, or some form of speech or form of service
that shall give solace
to thine injured mood, young shade, that doth
not give to other injury?
Nor that it befits thee better, that art
his elder both in earthly
years alike in death, to urge him peace,
belike discovering of
thine own wisdom such appeasement even, that
shall be acceptable
to all who now contend?
Formenos: [shaking his head]
No one can stop you
from talking, I suppose -- but I can't imagine
what you think you'll
accomplish, Finarfin old chap. Your skills as
a peacemaker and a leader
haven't exactly been shining successes,
what? After all, you
couldn't even keep your own children in line --
though I'm not sure
whether that says more about your parenting skills
than your -- ahem --
"leadership abilities," eh? Not like your brother
at all . . .
[he trails off, raising his eyebrow challengingly
-- Finarfin only gives him
a level Look, matching him stare for stare,
while to the side Finrod's jaw
hardens, though he doesn't say anything]
Amarie: [outraged]
He is King of the Noldor,
by right of descent that hath been confirméd
full by Taniquetil's
Powers -- and by desert, thou rebel, thou thief!
Aglon: [bored tone, not even looking at her]
Go back to your Valmar
birdcage and ring your bells, Firstling.
Amarie: [to Finrod]
--And dost thou stand
there, my lord, and hear, and do naught?
Finrod: [shrugging]
What do you want me
to do, exactly? I thought you were against violence.
Amarie:
It is thine own father
he mocketh, nor I alone!
Finrod: [bleakly]
I can tell him to be
quiet, but you've seen how much good that does.
If I hit him, it's going
to escalate, which is what I'm trying to
prevent. A bit counter-productive,
wouldn't you say?
[she snorts angrily; the Feanorians look on with malicious glee]
After all, it's hardly
fair of you to condemn Edrahil for losing his
temper at the same sort
of thing, and then goad me into it, -- unless
you're actually
trying to get me to do something to further justify
your bad opinions of
me--
Amarie: [loudly interrupting him]
Hold--
[she grits her teeth as if biting down on any
further imprecations, looking
as coolly unaffected as she can, but there are
tears in her eyes]
Aglon: [affecting innocence, gesturing back and forth]
So -- are you
two married, or not? I can never get a straight answer about
that, and my Lords weren't
quite sure either.
[to Amarie first]
It's just as well, considering,
that you stayed behind, Firstling -- you
do know he was notorious
for running off and not finishing things properly
before getting distracted
with something new. Saved yourself no end of
grief, I'm sure--
[to Finrod]
--It's hardly surprising
that nobody in Nargothrond followed you, when you
couldn't even convince
your own lady to do the same! Of course, that's not
really surprising either,
considering you never stayed there long enough
to unpack your bags.
--I wonder if they've even missed you yet?
[without looking around Finrod flings out his
arm, blocking the Captain from
moving forward; Amarie is white with fury]
Warrior:
We finished the defenses
of Barad Nimras, didn't we? And th--
Formenos: [cutting him off]
--Yes, and from what
I've heard, that was a signally pointless waste of
resources, wasn't it?
They didn't strike there, after all.
Ranger:
At least we didn't just
hang about on a perpetual shooting vacation enjoying
ourselves at other people's
expense!
[the Feanorian lords just smile, the baiting succeeding quite well]
Finrod: [impassive]
Have you anything of
substance
to impart, milords?
Nerdanel: [sternly chiding]
Ye should stand ashamed,
that have not learned aught of mercy else of
wisdom for the workings
of Doom.
[they don't even look at her, although a few of their following do.]
Ambassador:
They are Kinslayers,
noble lady, and one expects nothing else of them,
if one is wise.
[the Seneschal and Warden give him a glance and
then ignore him, as unworthy
of attention, while Nerdanel draws herself up
to deliver another rebuke.
Steward: [urgent]
Do not waste your time
and trouble, please -- it will only incur you
needless grief, and
insult.
[she gives him a a quick approving glance, and
continues to rake those who
formerly owed her fealty as well with an adamantine
glare. Some of them
display signs of clear discomfort, despite their
affectation of her non-
existence.]
Finrod: [disgusted exasperation]
What do you want? I'm
not about to let you hurt any of my people, and
I'm not going to allow
you to start a melee in here. Now you have the
choice of letting it
stop,
now, quietly, and taking it up with the Powers
that are here, as I
advised -- or of pressing it to open conflict. We are
not, --have not
-- and will not be the initiators of aggression. We do
our best to keep the
peace here, even in the face of your determination
to break it.
Aglon:
Oh, such pretty, pretty
words! What a pity they aren't true. --Or have
you forgotten how your
vassal there ran me through when I had done nothing
to him?
[the Steward lowers his head, but does not turn
away or retreat; Finrod is
unmoved by the retort, as are the rest of his
friends.]
Captain:
You hit the Sea-Mew.
Aglon: [blank]
Who?
Teler Maid: [loudly -- very loudly]
Me!!!
[he glances over, startled, and registers her presence]
Aglon: [exasperated, to Finrod]
I did no such thing.
I merely moved her aside as she was obstructing me --
all right, perhaps a
little
too much force, but nothing to hurt her, really.
[she snorts angrily, giving him a glare to which he is quite oblivious]
Finrod: [leadingly]
Obstructing you -- and
from
what?
Aglon:
? ? ?
[Finrod sighs, and looks at the Youngest Ranger]
Youngest Ranger: [clearly, if with reluctant expression]
From trying to strike
me, gentles.
Aglon:
--Who had struck me
without warning and most unsportsmanlike -- with
not even a proper weapon!
Finrod:
--And, as I understand
it, to forestall you from harming the Lord of
Dorthonion. --A Man
unarmed, crippled, occupied in peaceful pursuits,
and offering you no
cause for violence. Not to mention a valiant enemy
of our common Enemy.
[pause, in which everyone looks over at Beren
where he is standing unhappily
holding onto Huan's neck]
Aglon: [sullen]
He provoked me.
[derisive noises and loud jeers from the Ten & Huan -- Finrod gestures them quiet]
Finrod: [pleasantly]
Truthfully? I admit
that Beren's social skills are not always employed, but
tell me -- who spoke
first?
[silence]
Formenos: [patronizingly]
Finarfinion, you can't
really
expect us to take such insolence from one of
these yearsick Followers,
behaving as though he were one of us, our equal --
nay, our better -- and
not a
thief, come of a breed of thieves, overrunning
and taking all that's
ours by right.
Aglon: [nodding]
Indeed -- if he'd shown
me respect, as would be appropriate for someone who
owed everything
to our sacrifices in the Leaguer, I'd not have lost my temper
with your Man servant
there. Instead he behaved with less civility than the
rest of your people
usually do -- which I admit is a difficult thing to manage!
[simultaneously]
Second Guard:
Don't listen to them--
Ranger:
It isn't true, Beren,
don't pay attention.
Amarie: [amazed]
Still dost hold fast
to this thy jealousy, that art not even earth enough
to hold to aught
of earth, but like a shadow hast but swept 'cross the lands,
until thy time of Doom
hath swallowed thee as the night ever swalloweth
all such transitory
shadows? Wilt thou ever grasp at that which thou canst
not bear off, even as
thy
true Master doth ever seek to clutch all within's
own ever-increasing
hunger?
Teler Maid: [disdainful]
We might have
preferred the Twilight -- but only to better see the holy Stars,
and not to hide our
deeds!
Ambassador: [nodding]
Indeed, gentle maiden,
they are but Orcs that can endure the Sun, as
your words imply --
for so they have most clearly shown themselves to be.
Formenos:
Small your sort's gratitude
ever was, but it seems to have vanished
altogether, Dark-elf.
Ambassador:
What gratitude is owed,
for a deed unintended, sir? You did not have any
thought of our welfare
when you assaulted Morgoth, nor beleaguered him
-- it was but a consequence,
and quite as fortunate for your interests as
for those whose holding
Beleriand rightly was!
[the Lord Seneschal ignores him]
Aglon: [caustic, to Finrod]
I want satisfaction,
Your
Majesty.
Finrod: [looking at him as though he were a beetle]
And I want you and your
people out of here, or at least quiet, if you
insist upon staying.
Aglon:
And that's unfortunate,
since you can't enforce your will here any more
than you could in Nargothrond.
Finrod:
I don't recommend
you test that premise.
Aglon: [smiling a knowing smile]
No, you wouldn't --
since the Powers won't let you actually do anything
any more. And, of course,
like a dutiful little slave you promised to obey
them -- sorry,
child,
not thrall.
Finrod: [patiently]
I gave my word because
the Weaver was so upset, and it was a small thing
for me, to give her
peace of mind.
Aglon:
Oh, that's right --
you're just too nice for your own good. No wonder you
lost every battle and
contest you engaged in -- but considering you've but
a quarter Noldor blood,
it's perhaps more impressive that you ventured so
far from home and even
made the effort -- some sort of pity prize in order,
I should say!
Finrod: [raising an eyebrow]
The roads might
have been different -- but haven't they led us both to
the same prophesied
place?
Aglon:
. . .
Formenos: [graciously, to his confederate]
At least your
Doom meant something, saving our kinsfolk in the Battle
of Sudden Flame.
[Finarfin moves forward -- remembers -- checks, and turns to the Captain]
Finarfin: [low and fierce]
Smite him, friend --
and my blessing for it.
Captain: [regretful]
Gladly, my lord -- were
I allowed.
Amarie:
Is't within chance's
bounds, that any should have seen yon Doom unfold,
borne witness to all
its direst workings, and seen the truth of't borne
out, that all such unblessed
efforts end in misery and ruin -- and yet
offend thus blasphemously,
and most unsorrowing yet mock at it!?!
Formenos: [to Aglon and his supporters]
It's amazing how those
who have caged themselves will continue to insist
they're free, and better
off for being slaves, than those who have escaped.
No prisons like those
of the mind, don't you agree? We might be held here
against our will --
but at least we have our own free wills!
[as his friends smilingly agree, a strange woman's
voice echoes loudly through
the Hall:]
--Whenever are you going to learn -- Father?
[all turn to look at the new arrival, who is
standing just at the edge of
the dispute -- on the inner side of the Hall;
clearly she didn't just come in
through the door. Her appearance is striking:
it's impossible to tell which
Kindred this shade belongs to (hard even to
tell what gender) as the disorder
of her hair and ragged mismatch of her clothing
makes Beren look well-groomed,
and her expression makes Luthien at her most
frazzled seem calm and sane. She
stalks forward, stiff and awkward, as though
not used to people, or to welcome,
and everyone else draws back a little from this
hollow-eyed, ferocious-looking
madwoman -- with the notable exception of Finrod's
following. Ideally Natasha
McElhone from
Ronin would portray her.]
I never thought
to hear myself say this, but -- I am ashamed that
I am of any connection
to you all.
[her voice is harsh, and her way of talking sharp
and erratic like her movements.
The Feanorians stare at her, stunned, most of
them without recognition -- the
Seneschal of Formenos stares at her in shock,
completely speechless]
Not a word? After having been so glib in your own defense for so long!
[she folds her arms, wound up taut as a crossbow,
staring at those whose
primary self-identification is as Noldor, and
waits for someone to respond,
smiling without humor at their leader.]
Teler Maid:
Who are you?
Ex-Thrall: [ironically]
One of those who consented,
who stood by while you were killed. By my
ill-fortune I was not
drowned in the storm, the ship I rode on made the
dark voyage to Losgar,
and I lived to earn my Doom honestly.
[Beren shoulders through and comes around to
face her, Huan at his side
guarding him]
Beren: [troubled]
But how come you're
here?
Ex-Thrall: [genuine surprise]
You recall me?
Beren:
Of course I remember
you. You gave me half your scarf.
[someone in the crowd makes a noise, quickly cut off, and he looks up. Earnestly:]
Don't laugh. From someone who hasn't got much, that's a kingly gift.
[to the Ex-Thrall again]
Didn't you go home? --I didn't know you could talk.
Ex-Thrall: [bitter laugh]
What was there for me
to say? My deeds were sufficient. I went to the City.
[she shakes her head]
Something went
to the City, at least, and ate and bathed and walked in rooms
that did not stink of
decay and stared at every light like a witless moth.
Until Sun-return, when
there was no gift-singing there or joy, nor any way
to hide from the truth:
that I too, was an empty shell and nothing more, and
that there would never
be light again for any of us under that stone -- and
I lay down upon my couch,
and left.
[he tries to put his hand on her shoulder, but she shrugs off any attempt at comfort]
I did not speak to any
here until I heard your name, and knew that someone
else that might comprehend
what I might say was here, and came forth from
the shadows to ask
-- and stayed to tell instead.
[she flashes a glance over towards the Steward,
who bows slightly in her
direction, his expression lightening a little,
though still grim and stressed]
I have found no other
company here one-half so congenial, though 'tis thought
I am aloof and care
not for any.
Captain: [easily]
No, -- I think most
of us know you're severely agoraphobic and would be
present more
if you could manage it.
[She closes her eyes and smiles a faint, brief,
genuine smile, while some of the
Ten look a little penitent. Emphatic:]
--You don't have to talk about it.
[at once she lifts her head again, defiantly,
shaking her head. The Seneschal
of Formenos takes a step closer to her, and
opens his mouth to say something --
but she gives a terrible scream of rage and
pain, drowning him out]
Ex-Thrall:
Do not say it! I have
no name! She that had that name died long ago --
would you hear how?
-- and only I am left. --Kinslayer. Murderer.
Bloodguilty coward.
--Yes! Murderer thrice over, and more.
Formenos: [in helpless protest, shaking his head over and
over]
No -- you were
never a warrior--
Ex-Thrall: [mocking]
I never wielded a sword.
--I did not need to. Others always killed for me.
First you -- all
of you -- and then the servants of my Master, so that I
never might stain my
hands with death -- only my heart!
Aglon:
But you got away safely
-- we died to guard the evacuation--
[he is just as horrorstricken as his friend]
Ex-Thrall: [matter-of-fact]
No. There were wounded
who were unable to continue; I was endeavoring
to heal them enough
to carry on, when we were overtaken.
[looking at her father]
After you were killed,
as the War crept on, I vowed to honor you by saving
as many of our folk
as might be from the fighting, and became a Healer, as
it's done in the Old
Country -- but I went beyond, and rode forth with the
companies along the
Northern Front, as very few other maids dared, or dared
trouble their kindred's
hearts by daring to do. --But was I not your daughter?
[gesturing emphatically]
How could I be
any less brave, nor any less concerned, than you who died
in effort to end the
War before it truly began? --I never did believe that
our lord had gone to
the parley in anything but good faith, because I'd
have had to think that
of you, too. Not while I was alive.
[he opens his mouth, but doesn't say anything,
and she keeps going, addressing
them all equally:]
When the War broke out
and broke our lines, and all the rest of it, and
those of us who survived
the initial assault on Aglon knew it wasn't possible
to hold it, and we thought
to pull back to Himlad and join our forces with
the garrison there,
and keep that, at least, firm against the invaders -- but
you know all about that,
you've argued it over for a decade now. But it wasn't
possible, instead we
were joined by a cavalcade from Himlad, where the Enemy
had got round, and pushed
past round Himring through the March as well, so
that our lords were
forced to lead us west with Prince Orodreth's company,
down the Old Road where
even orcs would not dare to follow, using their
combined powers to keep
off the Gloomweaver's spawn. But I never got so far.
[looking at the Warden of Aglon]
Your younger brother
was badly wounded, by an axe-cut. --And others, as well,
but -- you understand.
Aglon: [anguished]
He -- he's not
a slave now too--?
[she smiles, a sinister, sinister smile, shaking her head]
Ex-Thrall:
No. I'll get to that.
I stayed back, with some others, trying with all
our might and main to
patch our friends -- and loved ones -- sufficiently
for them to keep on,
but in vain. The smokes confused us, and we
ended up captives, like
so many others, harried back across the lands
we had once held as
ours,
that now were reclaimed by their true Master.
Two years I served in
hell, two years -- but Time isn't the same there,
as it wasn't the same
here, after the Sun came.
[shaking her head]
It's always dark, there,
always the same, and her seasons don't bring
renewal or strength
or plenty or peace by turns. Two years I struggled
to stay alive, to avoid
the notice, and the lash, of his fell Commanders,
and their underlings
-- and to stay others, wielding my skills in the domain
of Death, for those
burnt or broken in machinery, and doing it in defiance,
though I knew it was
tolerated as a useful thing, by our Lord and His
people. Every little
was an unimaginable gain, in that place that is Him,
where the very air corrodes
the lungs that breathe it, and the walls throb
with His anger when
you fall against them.
Formenos:
But you're free now
-- it's over--
Ex-Thrall: [blunt]
--Never. I left there,
in the company of many other slaves, for the south,
a group given -- selected
by what miserable fate I do not know -- to the
victorious Commander
who had just overthrown one of the last few bastions
of Elvish resistance,
and was working on consolidating the entire North
from the Pass to the
River. He needed workers to arm his troops, and serve
them, and to repair
the damages done to the fortress in its taking. And so
we came to Tol Sirion,
who had not thought ever to leave Angband again.
[she gives Finrod a significant Look]
It was . . . different
there. For one, it was more depressing: Angband
might be built in part
by Eldar hands, but not originally, and nothing of
its design says so.
For another, there's no such thing as anonymity: you
can't hide amid the
herd, be just another number, keeping your self to
yourself, so long as
you keep your head down and stay lucky, in a place
that small. I found
that out very shortly, when I was summoned -- well,
that's technically true,
though most likely not what you'd first think
of, for the word "summoned"
-- to the presence of our new Doomsman, the
Necromancer, from whom
it was whispered that not even death might set one
free, though we Light-elves,
and most lately captured, could hardly credit
such superstition.
Ranger: [automatically starting to correct]
It wasn't--
[but is interrupted himself by the Youngest Ranger
-- his junior in age, but
superior in rank, silences him with a hand over
his mouth and a Look; the
Noldorin warrior is apologetic and shamefaced,
but the Feanorian lady doesn't
seem to notice the disturbance]
Ex-Thrall:
The dread Lord of that
Island gave me to understand that he understood
very well, that there
were many among the thralls who were not equal to
their set tasks, whose
strength had failed, or was failing, and who were
covered for by their
friends and dearest ones. I denied it; he laughed.
"You heal them," he
scoffed, "you know it even better than I. So long as
you get them back to
work, it's all the better for my purposes. But when
it comes to feeding
useless drones -- no more, I say. What I want, is for
you to take note of
such, and inform me who is incapable, as you find
them so."
[she looks at the lawful Eldar grouped together]
Not even pretense, now,
when setting Elf against Elf -- raw and unvarnished,
his mastering of treason.
I said nothing -- he mistook me. Or so I thought.
"In return for your
services, I can assure you of far better treatment, not
only for yourself, but
for those you -- minister to," he pledged, offering
improved medical care
as the payback -- for the survivors, that is.
[shrugging]
It made sense, when he
explained it: his staff had to eat, not just the
Orcs and the Wargs,
but also his couriers as well. They needed fresh
blood, but it was always
risky for them to hunt, the chance of being
caught on the ground,
and by culling -- his word -- the slaves for those
who were going to depart
soon anyway, this meant less danger of messenger,
and message, being lost;
and of course the rest of the body would be eaten
by his other minions,
if it were not too wasted. A proposition triply
beneficial -- to him,
to me, and to the majority of us. And I refused.
[she smiles grimly, and pauses]
Formenos:
You've not been here
eight
years--?!
Ex-Thrall: [impatient]
Haven't you been paying
attention? No, he had me tossed in a closet for a
week -- I think
it was a week, at least -- not wide enough to lie down in
or high enough to stand
in, pitch dark -- it had been a chimney-breast once,
but was blocked off
for more useful purposes; he didn't trouble much with
keeping a cheerful atmosphere
going throughout the place. But I held fast,
and did not yield in
the least, not even in imagining -- I sang against him,
songs of Valinor, until
physically unable, and still I thought resistance at
him, and finally they
hauled me out of there and brought me into the Terrible
One's presence. And
then, I thought I'd won -- that either he'd send me back
to my labours, or harder
ones, or kill me then and there. No such luck.
[she looks sidelong at the Ten through veiled
lashes, her expression more
sneering than ever]
Finrod: [very serious]
Is this going to do
you any good?
Ex-Thrall:
What does that
matter?
[to her father]
Oh, but I was defiant,
I was strong -- I hadn't let them break me, and
I would not be
broken. No matter what. And he didn't say anything, not
a word, just smiled
at me, while I stood there shaking from hunger and
cramped muscles, weeping
in the torchlight, and telling myself, and him,
in my mind that it was
purely physical reaction, and meaningless, and
believed it. Some of
his minions carried in a block of iron, by the rings
set in its sides --
it was huge, the size of a wall-stone, too massive
to be moved by any one's
strength, not even one of us. I stared at it,
trying to think what
new torture it could be for -- I couldn't see any
moving parts, except
for the circular handles -- but I didn't show them
my fear. I would
not. And then they chained me to one of the rings, and
I laughed inside to
think that all this terror had been for but another
beating -- that there
was nothing so effective as the fearful mind for
defeating itself, and
all that was needed was true Eldar spirit, to
withstand the vaunted
Power of the Terrible One. I actually pitied the
Grey Kindred at that
moment, for all their terror of him and his kind,
poor weaklings without
the resistance of our people.
[she gives a quick glance towards the Youngest Ranger]
I was such a fool.
[to the Lord Warden of Aglon]
--I told you there was
more to your brother's story. They dragged him
in -- and what a reunion
that
was, when I hadn't known he was there --
or even still alive
-- or he the same of me. His defiance, and challenges,
and brave words in my
behalf -- they would have made your heart blaze
with pride, I'm sure,
as they did mine. It never occurred to us -- to me,
at least, and I'm sure
to him as well -- that we were nothing new, nothing
the Enemy and his followers
hadn't seen a hundred times before -- our
courage, or ignorance.
We were so sure that the Dark was weaker than our
love, that nothing could
defeat us, even though they killed us -- even
though they made hideous
sport of us first.
[wearily]
I don't know what Sauron
wanted from him. I don't know that he wanted
anything, and
would have killed him whatever he chose. I've always assumed
that -- that
he died simply because of me -- but perhaps that's but my
arrogance as well. I
don't know, now.
[pulling herself together, in her sarcastic tone again]
So there we were, both
cuffed to this block in the middle of the floor,
not enough length to
the chains to reach across it nor around it and hold
hands -- but by leaning
over it as far as one could stretch, we managed to
touch another way --
I must have looked as frightful and orc-like as he did,
but that didn't matter.
The soldiers applauded and made all sorts of comments,
but we didn't care about
that either. There was just
us, and the Dark didn't
matter. Then -- something
growled above us, and we broke apart so fast I
split my lip on his
teeth -- or mine, couldn't tell -- and tried to get away,
crawling back as far
as the chains would allow.
Formenos:
Not -- not a Balrog?
[his daughter shakes her head, smiling a little]
Ex-Thrall:
No. A Werewolf. The
big silvery one, the captain of his elite guard. Oh yes.
You've seen Wolves before,
seen his minions out and about, fought them, fled
them, killed them --
they're not so terrible, truly, no more than the Orcs,
isn't that so? Stronger,
swifter, a little more canny, in strange ways, harder
to understand -- but
not like the Fiery Ones, the commanding demons of our
Iron God. Wargs can
be answered with a spear, a sword, an arrow or a word on
the wind to bear your
scent elsewhere or blind them to you --Nothing like
Balrogs, right?
[she looks at her former comrades and relatives
with a self-mocking sneer,
while they avoid her eyes]
Beren: [flatly]
That depends. On where
you are in relation to 'em, and if they know you're
there or not.
[she doesn't turn towards him, but the slight
lift of her chin acknowledges his
words, while she continues to stare at her parent]
Ex-Thrall:
Handcuffed on the floor,
waiting for an execution order, looking at those
dripping fangs, those
glowing eyes -- it was, for me, at least. No fire left,
not even embers of that
blaze that was so bright -- both of us like grubs,
dug up from their roots,
writhing in the cold air -- no voice left to speak
defiance, nor love,
now. This was his place, and his power, and no other
song is possible in
his presence, far less than our common Master though
the Terrible One might
be. He strode through my shields as though they
were not even there,
and I realized that nothing had been hidden from him,
all along, and that
there
is no hope.
[though she does not, others cannot help but
glance at the Nargothronders
-- who look sorry for her, but not particularly
fazed, Finrod least of all,
as the former Healer continues:]
"You know what I want,"
he told me. "If you will not serve me, you are no
use to me as you are.
Shall I reduce you to your component parts, and make
use of them separately?"
I was still, and did not answer -- the Wolf's breath
down my neck, that should
have been warm, but I was in a winter gale, ice
all over me. "Which
will it be?" he asked my soul again, and smiled at us.
"Whose flesh will feed
my servants -- yours, or another's?"
[smiling through her teeth:]
I didn't say anything -- I didn't have to. It was that easy.
[the Lord Warden shakes his head in helpless
protest -- then looks around
suddenly with a wild expression as if he might
see his brother here, too]
I hid my face, and didn't
watch. While it was still going on -- but mostly
over -- they unchained
me and let me get dressed again, and I walked out
of there, and did not--
[her father interrupts her, involuntarily, with a spastic gesture of his hand]
Formenos:
You--
[he cannot go on, but she tosses her head scornfully, snorting]
Ex-Thrall:
Of course. You don't
feed people to the Wolves with their clothes on.
[lightly]
--What, you don't laugh? You don't find the idea at all amusing now?
[cold iron]
--I did not look back.
Not then. Not after. Not ever -- until the dark that
we crawled in ripped
open and the Night came pouring into our cells, our
prison-rooms -- our
tombs; and we remembered. We remembered -- things
we had never known.
Not truly. Not how precious they were, until we lost
them -- destroyed them
-- threw them away. All that time that I silently
handed over my fellow
prisoners for destruction, naming them as too weak
to work, and telling
myself that it was mercy, that they should die sooner,
and kinder to be eaten
quickly, than slowly by the Dark and the malice of
our Master -- lying
to myself, even as they thanked me for healing them and
caring for them, while
I gave them over in my stead, and none of them ever
knew -- I had
to do, it for my own survival, and I could not regret it,
because if I ever
looked back -- I could not go on.
[shaking her head without stopping]
Only -- that High-elven
lady whom you knew in Beleriand did not survive.
She too died in that
hour, eaten just as surely as the other, and what
walked away without
regret is all that remains.
[with a mocking smile]
Will you call me your
jewel, your songbird, your beautiful one now? Will
you embrace me and call
me your star, your sweeting, your treasure, now,
Father?
[she stares at him, daring him to reject her,
but hoping against hope that he
will not. With a cry of anguish he turns, clutching
at his temples, and remains
standing hunched over as if mortally wounded,
his head bowed and eyes
closed. She laughs wildly.]
I knew it -- I knew it!
You too cannot bear the thought of me, murderess,
Kinslayer, weakling
-- thrall--
[she reaches out her hands to the Lord Warden
of Aglon, who is looking at
her with an agonized expression, filled with
embarrassment as much as horror]
And you, my friend
-- all of you that were my friends, whose lives and
limbs I saved, those
many years of the Leaguer, whose hands held mine
in dance and peace,
even as for comfort when you lay wounded -- will
you disown me too?
[they look away from her in shame, some of them
lifting hands in protest,
or in appeal for her pity, and she falls on
her knees, bent over, weeping,
but still defiant and challenging: as the Ten
move closer to try to lift
her up or console her she flings their hands
away from her, and shouts at
the Feanorians:]
--Only these -- who alone
have the right to scorn me, of all you ghosts
and vainglorious shadows,
who faced the test and did not fail it -- only
they've not fled from
me in horror! O robbers, brigands, thieves who struck
down the helpless when
they tried to resist us -- and yet even
you have
not fallen so low that
you don't see the poisoned aura about me, and shrink
from it--!
[she starts rocking back and forth, her arms
clenched around her chest, trying
not to cry out loud, gasping]
Youngest Ranger: [very seriously]
I don't think it's that
-- I think it's that you're crazy.
[she gives a hoarse bark of surprised laughter, but he goes on in the same way:]
That's what scares them.
There's others have done worse things, you know.
Or at least -- more
of them. But they're not so plainly daft, as you.
[pause -- she chuckles through her tears]
--Or else they're worse, that they don't see that they should be.
[the Ex-Thrall pulls herself together and looks
up at the onlookers around
her, first her own kin and people, and then
at the watching faithful, living
and dead.]
Ex-Thrall: [defiantly]
What would you say to
me, Finarfin son of Indis? That I should have turned
back with you at Araman?
Finarfin:
I am King of
the Noldor now--
[meaningful tone]
--eke of them that do own me thus, even as them that yet do not--
[the Ten look down awkwardly, a little ashamed;
the Feanorian contingent gives
him startled looks, some angry, some wondering]
--nor be it meet that
I should add one measure to the judgment that hath been
given unto thee, presuming
to greater wisdom than the Powers thereby. Aye,
and thou hadst known
less sorrow, hadst indeed returned home in that time,
-- but this thou dost
even ken, ere didst speak it.
Ex-Thrall: [softly]
Like son, like father
--
[the two Noldor Kings steal glances quickly at
each other, before she goes on,
this time to Amarie:]
--And you, Fairest
One, come down from your mountain -- what word for
this bloodstained one?
--Or will you turn away in silence as well?
Amarie: [calmly]
Thou art far from first,
nor yet the last, that Feanor hath led astray --
nor indeed the mightiest.
Bereft of the heartening strength of this Land,
of Light, how might
ye help but fall beneath our Enemy's sway in the
Shadowed Realm?
[some of the Feanorians bridle at her words,
but others look troubled and
downcast; the Seneschal remains bent, anguished,
where he has turned away]
Ex-Thrall:
You speak of him
-- but what says she who would not be led, nor driven,
but held firm in her
resolve despite all persuasion?
[turning her head, she matches stares with Nerdanel,
who draws near to her
with an untroubled expression and kneels down
a short distance in front of
her while she addresses her:]
Nerdanel:
What hast thou
done, child, that mine own children did not? --And yet
I love them, nor shall
ever cease.
[the former Healer bows her head a little, closing
her eyes, and then squaring
her shoulders looks up coolly at Elu Thingol's
emissary.]
Ex-Thrall:
Well, lord of the Grey
folk -- hold you still with your lord's judgment
on us? Or have you learned
mercy in your own death?
Ambassador: [in a detached, level tone]
You have acknowledged
your deeds, Feanorian. Anything further that I might
say would be both needless
and cruel.
[they both sigh, recognizing that this isn't
enough, and it's the best that he
can give or she will get -- and then she turns
to look at the shade from
Alqualonde.]
Ex-Thrall:
And you, Foamrider,
who said but a little while ago that such a fate was
no more than such as
I merited -- what do you say to me, Kinslain?
[the Sea-elf stares at her directly, her eyes
very wide, her face otherwise
expressionless, for a long moment.]
Teler Maid:
I think -- I think you
have been tortured enough.
[the Ex-Thrall flinches as if the other had struck
her instead, shaking her head
a little in protest, and then looks at Beren]
Ex-Thrall: [softly]
Now that you know the
truth of me, traitor as much as victim -- will you
shun me, mortal?
[he shakes his head, very deliberately]
Beren:
I remember.
Huan:
[thin whines]
[the Hound walks slowly over beside her, tail
dragging, and puts his head down
by hers: she doesn't respond, but doesn't push
him away either. Moving softly,
as if not to startle a hurt animal, Finrod comes
to kneel down directly in front
of her, putting his hands on her shoulders and
looking her directly in the eyes]
Finrod:
Someday -- you will
take up your name again, and it will be true again, and
you will sing once more,
under the Stars.
Ex-Thrall: [disbelieving]
When?
Finrod:
I don't know. Someday.
[as he speaks, her father half-turns and looks
at them, as torn between hope
and remorse and doubt as she]
When you are ready, you
will leave the shelter of these Halls, and you will
walk under the sky,
and your voice will give as much peace to your hearers
as presently brings
pain.
[The Ex-Thrall sighs . . . and vanishes from
under his hands without another
word. The Lord Seneschal flinches, bowing his
head, and disappears as well,
leaving his cohorts in disarray as well as dismay.
Finrod gets up and turns to
face the remaining Feanorian supporters, addressing
them in a quiet, matter-
of-fact, but uncompromising tone:]
Why don't you just go now?
[the living Eldar look at him in shock and dismay
of their own, while a warrior
of Aglon asks his commander anxiously:]
Feanorian:
Sir -- what -- what
ought we do now . . . ?
Nerdanel:
But -- what of yon poor
maiden?
Finrod: [blankly]
--What of her?
[the Lord Warden makes a helpless gesture to
his follower, struggling for
articulate speech]
Aglon: [shaking his head, struggling against tears]
I -- I -- ah--!
Finarfin: [with a perceptive look at his son]
Such trouble is not
strange to thee, but oft thou must give thy counsel to
the broken of heart,
is't not so?
Finrod: [nodding]
Not infrequently. Sometimes
we talk. More often I listen. Generally they
just want to be seen
by someone who won't dismiss them, and then we
just sit quietly, or
I play--
[glancing over where the harp rests on the stones]
--until they're ready
to speak to someone higher. That was a tremendous
improvement -- usually
you can hardly tell she's there.
[as the four lawful Elves look at him, and each
other, and the stunned
Feanorians with lingering shock and distress,
Nienna's Apprentice comes in
through the doorway in determined haste, sees
the gathering and flings up
his hands in disgust.]
Nienna's Apprentice:
Oh, threnody, not this
again! Would you people go away and find something
constructive to do?
[he makes a sweeping, dismissive motion with his arm. Afterthought:]
--Please.
[the Warden of Aglon turns, welcoming this new
challenge as a replacement
for prior emotions, as do his companions]
Aglon: [extreme haughtiness]
You will not
address me in that fashion, boy.
Apprentice:
Actually . . . I will.
--Ghost.
[the Elven warrior shakes his head, standing
his ground, his lip curling at
the retort]
Aglon:
You -- can't
compel us to do anything. Can you?
[he sneers over at the Captain]
--That's what you were getting at, trying to be cryptic.
[to the Apprentice again]
--Can you?
Apprentice: [shrugging]
No, I can't. --But I
can
make things unpleasant enough that you'd wish
you'd cooperated in
the first place.
Aglon:
How?
Apprentice:
Erm . . .
Aglon: [snorting]
You can't even bluff
properly, you fool.
[his followers and associates grin savagely at the put-down]
Apprentice: [shakes his head, reasonable tone]
I wasn't bluffing, I
was considering which option was the more appropriate
one. I know which one
I'd
like better, but I don't think my Master would
like it at all. So --
I'm just going to annoy you by pointing out certain
hard truths in the presence
of people you're trying to impress, one of which
is the fact that you
feel you have to impress them demonstrates that you in
fact respect them enough
to care about their respect, deny it as you may.
You can't just walk
away from them, or leave them alone -- can you? But
they're indifferent
to your good or bad opinion of them, and that's a second
hard truth.
[ticking the points off on his fingers, and beginning
to pace restively in
front of them -- in the background several of
the would-be combatants quietly
fade from view]
Thirdly, you're blinded
by your self-importance to the fact that you
thereby make yourself
ridiculous in the eyes of most of your fellow-dead,
by pursuing these personal
grudges beyond reason.
[he frowns, trying to remember, and more of the rival faction discreetly slip away]
Oh, yes -- and the fact
that you always come off the worse in these little
exchanges and yet you
keep persisting in the same course says a great deal
for your tenacity and
even courage, -- but not a lot for your intelligence,
I'm afraid.
[pause]
Aglon: [ice]
I have better things
to do than waste my time listening to your chatter.
[he spins about with a flourish of his cape and
stalks off, followed by his
remaining fellow-partisans.]
Apprentice: [cheerful]
Success! Without having
to hit anyone, either. Though I don't know I'll
agree with his definition
of "better."
[to Finrod]
I thought about the way
you
usually manage to dissipate things without
recourse to violence,
and decided to try it myself, since people just
ignore me when I ask
them nicely, and laugh when I get angry.
[noticing that both Finrod and Amarie are both
standing there glaring at him
with identical expressions, arms folded.
Ah.
[to Amarie, brightly]
There you are
-- I was obliged to leave for just a moment, and when I came
back, you were nowhere
to be found.
[she raises an eloquent eyebrow; he flinches.]
Finrod: [abrupt]
Have you got anything
for me?
Apprentice:
Erm -- oh. Right. That.
Ah -- hm -- becalmed. Lulled, so to speak.
Finrod:
What?
Apprentice:
Circling on a thermal.
Stable.
Static. Or stagnant.
Finrod: [piqued, to the Captain]
Have you any
notion what he's getting at?
[the Elven officer shakes his head, amused; the
newest arrivals are giving
Nienna's student some very strange Looks]
Apprentice: [looking conspiratorially towards them]
But -- I mean, we'll
be
overheard--
Finrod:
Just say it. I'm tired,
annoyed, and out of patience--
[the other looks alarmed]
--nearly.
[as the Apprentice glances meaningfully at the four bystanders]
Go ahead -- they're all my family, after all, to greater or lesser degree.
[bland]
After all, if you can't trust your kin, whom can you trust?
[while Nienna's student gives him a very askance
Look, there is a great deal
of sudden throat-clearing and turning aside
of faces among the Ten; the
law-abiding contingent bridles somewhat at this,
but manage to refrain from
comment]
Apprentice:
Well, if you say so
-- your cousin suggested that recourse be made to the
highest authorities,
and was met with resistance -- but the subject of
debate shifted again
to other things, and . . . they're still arguing again
over whether it was
a mistake for our divine King and Queen to heed my
Master's plea and release
His Majesty's brother--
[in a rush, very forcefully]
--and please nobody
start arguing about that now, all right? -- and that's
where things remain.
[Finrod looks at the Captain, frowning]
Captain: [shaking his head]
That hardly seems worth
the trouble of reporting, now.
[the disguised Maia shrugs, giving Finrod an apologetic look]
Apprentice:
Sorry -- I'd actually
come back to ask if you'd mind -- much -- doing me
a favour.
Finrod: [flatly]
You're asking
me a favor.
Apprentice:
Just a small one. Not
you specifically.
[encouraged by Finrod's silence, he hurries on:]
I -- I've been given
another errand to run, and I'm supposed to be keeping
an eye on things, and
I thought I had that situation under control, but then
something unpleasant
occurred to me: what if the system I set up to do that
simply wasn't working
at all, and that's why there hasn't been any alarm?
And so I thought I'd
better check.
[blank, suspicious looks from all around -- hastily]
You know the, um, the
remote viewer over at His Lordship's throne -- that
stone sphere, well,
it's
made of stone -- you haven't noticed it, well, doing
anything, have
you?
Finrod:
Such as?
Apprentice:
Glowing.
Finrod:
No. --Of course, I've
not been here.
Apprentice:
I know. That's why --
[he glances around]
--if anyone had happened to see, I was hoping . . .
[the Ten share looks, headshakes all round]
Warrior:
We've not noticed anything.
Apprentice:
Would -- would you,
let me know if you do? If you wouldn't mind keeping
an eye on it?
Captain:
We can try -- but I
don't know that we won't get distracted and forget.
Things have been rather
-- well, distracting, lately, to put it mildly.
Apprentice:
But--
[pause]
No. Never mind.
Captain:
What?
Apprentice:
I was going to try to
argue that you owed me assistance in return, but
that isn't true, even
considering the rather-underhanded way you obtained
mine. And this -- having
several tasks assigned at the same time, each
one having top priority
-- that's something that preceded it, anyway, and
it's quite apart from
it. So I really can't claim any, erm, claim on your
time as a result of
that, either. It isn't as though it's your fault.
And you did promise
to do your best.
[raising his hands in a resigned gesture]
Just have to muddle through somehow, I suppose.
[frowning, noticing something about the falls]
I say, somebody's put that all wrong again.
[the apparent-Elf gestures towards the flame-illusions
over the shallow end
of the spill-pool, lowering them.
Ranger:
Stop that! That's someone
else's work.
Apprentice:
But they're all
wrong--
Ranger:
So? You don't just come
and change others' Art without leave.
Third Guard:
You used to do it all
the time, I recall.
Ranger:
Yes, but I learned better.
[pause -- frank admission]
After the villagers complained
to the King and it was explained to me.
At some length.
[he looks at Finrod, who raises his eyebrows bemusedly]
Thank you, Sir.
[to Nienna's student]
I understand how tempting
it is to remake something you think is flawed,
but you really ought
to ask first. And if they don't want to change it,
you can't just correct
it for them. That's just like Morgoth, really.
[the disguised Maia looks quizzical, but doesn't say anything]
Amarie: [officious]
Nay, 'tis false -- the
Dark One would but to break, and not to build.
Finarfin:
Yet dost thou not recall
how our High King hath spoken of the Enemy's
wish to shape all according
but to his will, nor only after did so strive
to wreck, that was not
given over unto him? Of such matters Lord Ingwe
hath most deeply questioned
the gods, and hath knowledge most profound
and widesome of us all,
Vanyar, Noldor, or Teler, in truth.
[Finrod can't help but cast a quizzical glance
at the Apprentice, who looks
suspiciously blank]
Amarie:
Yet is't not true as
well, that such ill-making should be most rightly
named destruction?
Finarfin: [smiling slightly]
Thou art most resolute,
my lady.
[she gives him an unamused Look]
Ranger: [ignoring their argument]
Anyway, you shouldn't.
It's our project, not yours. Go make your own
light-display elsewhere,
if you don't like this one.
Apprentice:
But I haven't time,
and I'll probably get in trouble for it.
Ranger:
That isn't our problem.
Apprentice:
Actually, it is -- only
you
don't care.
[to the Ten, cajolingly]
But don't you want
it to be right? Surely you can see it's all wrong the
way it is!
Ranger:
But it looks
right.
[appealing to the bystanders]
Doesn't it look better the way it was?
Finarfin:
I fear I did little
mark the difference.
Amarie: [sniffs]
'Tis a curious amalgam
of sundries, the which might eke be little changed
for better as for ill.
Ambassador:
I must say that I prefer
the brighter display myself.
Nerdanel: [consolingly to Nienna's Apprentice]
Nay, I do confess thou
hast belike the right of it, and most aptly so, for
being of the coasts
and seeing therefore most frequent th'effects of light
on water. Yet, naytheless
must I alike hold with all who hold it finer to
the eye, to give thereto
the greatest expanse of scintillation, the tallest
of flames thereby.
Apprentice: [glumly]
Oh, all right.
[he nods, putting the flames back as they were. Reluctant]
They do look prettier that way . . .
Teler Maid: [muttering to herself in bewilderment]
--He is not Teler. He
sounds not like to us at all! Why say they so, when
clearly he is Vanyar?
Captain: [aside to her]
People find what they
expect to find. And don't find what they don't, either.
Teler Maid:
Your riddles are as
poor as ever.
[she frowns, tossing her hair back, and stares
critically at the Apprentice,
who feels it and looks over to see her]
Apprentice: [reacting with pleased surprise]
Oh! How nice to see
you out and about, talking to people finally.
[she folds her arms and looks very prickly and put-upon]
Despite what reservations
some might have about your choice of company.
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